It’s hard to know how to fill my days
when I haven’t quite reached the distraction phase.
Two full days & nights without leaving this bed,
the life I live now exists in my head.
I try and put on a show for the crowd,
but all I want is to make you proud.
How do I go on and live life for me
knowing my efforts you may never see?
I pray you’re not too hard on your mind,
I know it can often be far too unkind.
I feel quiet today, a stillness unmatched
but a great deal away from being detached.
These words I scribe you’re avoiding to read
I’ll just leave them here, even when you feel freed.
It helps to sense we’re connected somehow
but I know it’s something you just won’t allow.
My energy feels in short supply,
so today I’ll just sit and simply say “hi”
