I had found myself shelled
Living in voids day-to-day
A dull, earthly fog
Muted in only one shade of gray
You came to my door
And simply tapped three times
A small, subtle shift
From allegory and rhymes
I wasn’t prepared
When I turned that knob
The waters rushed in
My heart started to throb
I suddenly found myself
Under the flood
You filled every crack
And warmed up my cold blood
Each nook of my mind
Occupied with just you
From thoughts of the past
And a year in review
Is he smiling right now
And enjoying his life?
No more distress and
Worry or strife?
Who will be the new soul
That will make him laugh
And eventually become
His other half?
Will she bring him the joy
He so rightly deserves?
Will she give him pleasure
And replace my curves?
This pain is too great
I just can’t go on
If this is what feeling is
Please give me the fog
Not today, said my heart
You’ll sit in your tears
And drown in his presence
On this eve of New Years
Surround me with thoughts
Of his waning love
And the beautiful life
You just had to give up
Let this pain fill your soul
And make you feel real
Understand, it will never
Replace the ideal
But you have to stop living
As just bones and skin
There still exists hope
You will laugh once again
But, for now, until
The end of my days
There is only one thing
That sets my heart ablaze
His arms will be my
Forever goal
I’ll just be one half
Searching for her whole
